Today was the second doctor visit. The baby is getting bigger and I am finally starting to feel a little better. Whew! I can't believe it! A few more weeks and I should feel great! I really can't wait, it has been way too long...so I feel.

I am getting slightly more excited at the prospect of having a little one. I think for the moment I am more afraid than anything, but seeing it actually look like a baby now is pretty cool. Although, I feel pregnancy is not as enjoyable as I've been told, I do look forward to seeing my child grow and develop its own personality. I want to hear all the funny, quarky things he or she will say, do and feel. My cousin mentioned that she now has a "movie night" for my godson, they pick a family movie every friday night and she allows him one kind of sweet and popcorn. He is entirely ecstatic every time Friday arrives and it is movie time. I think that is definitely something to look forward to.

I read a story someone sent me by email today and it told of a young boy who's family had a dog dying of cancer. The family made a consensual decision to put the dog to sleep so it wouldn't suffer. They thought the boy, although six years old, might somehow learn something from the experience. When it was all over, they sat and reflected on the sad fact that dogs do not live as long as humans. No one said a word except the boy. He said 'People are born so that they can learn how to live a good Life -- like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?', 'Well, dogs already know how to do that, so they don't have to stay as long.'
I was completely moved by the intelligence of the boy and the lesson to be learned from dogs. Such as unconditional love, the simple pleasures in life-like feeling the wind on your face, loyalty, complete elation when you feel happy about something, and being affectionate. It makes the prospect of starting a family and committing to it, not so scary of an idea after all!