oh the chaos!

time...

something i no longer posses control of. i have tried several times...no, pretty much ALL DAY, to steal a few moments to myself, with absolutely no success. not that i am complaining, i just find it particularly funny and a bit overwhelming. i was told that this was the phase of my son's growth that i would find myself bored a lot.

really???

when does that happen? when he is demanding my attention 24/7 or when he is spitting up, destroying my nipples, crying (or rather whining), needing to be changed, or simply cranky from the constant barrage of stimulation now that is aware of his surroundings? Remembering to feed myself is quite the challenge while I tote the 14 pound bugger in one arm...oh yeah, I definitely feel the burn!

i find time for nothing. i would be lucky to get five minutes, i am mostly forcing the time just to unwind, while i hear the whining in the background...but that never lasts long :)
even now, i have introduced him to a play-mat with hanging animals to see if he would take to it, but NO. he is now letting me know he has had enough...all of the FIVE minutes he has been at it! when does anyone find time to be bored?!

Seriously?!

i spend more time trying to figure out what all the whining implicates...hunger, discomfort, dirty diaper, or exhaustion. my heart races as I anticipate solving yet another mystery!